I’m all for being ideally loving, but not a fan of being idealistic about love. As a past fundamental christian I had this beautiful perfect picture of what love looks like, so much so that I was disillusioned daily.
The pressure and guilt I felt to be more loving and caring led me to be less loving and caring to my loved ones, because after all Jesus said even evil people love those that love them. I needed to love others so much that I forgot to love the ones that depended on me. I placed such a burden to save the list on my shoulders that i had nothing left for my family, and i thought oh the strength will come, but I ended up going further and further down the road to burn out.
To create even more burn out I became a nurse as it was my mission to save the world. I am just recently realizing the unrealistic expectations I placed on my self.
We have a finite amount of time, and we should spend aot of it solidifying our love for those we share our lives with.